26 January …

Weather has been pretty consistent.  Made a trip around the Mountain with neighbor Jenny yesterday.  She drives. I have yet to give it a go.  Am planning on next week.

Here in McCloud there is still snow piled up at the street sides where snow plows cleared and around 18-20” on the flat with a few bare patches.  But there is no obvious snow on the Mt Shasta side of the Mountain except above the tree line.  

Although morning temperatures are below freezing, days are pleasant in the 50s.

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Amy, the Aussie pup who lives at the end of the street and was not quite a handful in size when she arrived, is now a bouncy small armful.  Her owner shares her and the older mini-Aussie whenever I’m out on a walkabout at the same time as he is out with his “ladies”.  I’m too old to start raising a pup now, but this sharing fills my “puppy” fix need.

And there is the part-Dalmatian named Jewel  who walks (runs) with Jenny when she makes her therapeutic walkabout every morning.  However, Jewel is usually too busy checking out to see who or what was out and about during the night to waste time with neighbors.  

Last evening there was a brave rabbit scouting the open space across the street.  I’d seen tracks, but this was the first close time I’ve seen a rabbit.  

That got me thinking about the community garden handled by the two neighbors down the street from me.  Mark and Dave are good neighbors who maintain the garden and share garden produce with neighbors.  I wonder what, if any, trouble rabbits give them.  

I talked with one of the gardners yesterday and he told me a greenhouse is being added to the garden this year in order to extend growing time.  Maybe an additional round of fencing across the bottom of the existing fencing with small enough mesh to keep rabbits out? 

But after all, I’m not on that committee.

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And speaking of Dave … there was a large white vehicle at his place last evening after dark (about 1930 – 2000) with flashing lights and blinkers, but no noise makers.  I don’t know how long it was there, and I wasn’t where I could see the vehicle markings as it left.

Guess I lived in a rather isolated place for all those years where anything unusual which I could see from the house was worth investigating.  Now I’m turning into the little old lady who notices everything unusual in our small neighborhood.

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My daily walkabout now includes a round starting at my driveway, out to the main entrance to the Village, back to the cul de sac with a go-around, then back to the starting point at my driveway.  Maybe in a few days I’ll start doing a second walkabout in the afternoon.

Next step will be making one complete round with Jenny – she has measured it at a quarter mile.

I’ve probably already told you all this, but my progress in increasing stamina is exciting to me.

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There is a major crossing place at the intersection between the north and south parts of McCloud with the business district (if you can call one long block a “business district”) on the north including the “Company” houses, The Company Mercantile (now shops and a hotel), the old time hotel, the churches, schools, library, and post office. To the south includes some smaller scattered residential areas, the golf course, and the cemetery.  

I live on the south side of highway 89 and so have to cross the “Freeway” to get to the post office and the grocery store.  There is a fair amount of view in each direction on 89, but the trucks come through at a rather good clip so caution is advised.  I’m not sure what the speed limit in the area is, but I am told it used to be lower until truckers complained they couldn’t get up enough momentum at that speed to get up the hill headed toward the local kids’s sledding and beginner ski area known as “Snowman’s Hill” and the turnoff to the ski park which is the spot where the downhill slope begins.  So to accommodate truckers, the speed limit was raised.  Now to get across 89 requires attention.  

Someone suggested an elevated crossing for locals (vehicular, bicycle, and foot traffic) but we all know what chance that kind of suggestion for a small village like McCloud has of ever seeing even a planning meeting.

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Just had a call from a former amateur radio connection.  So far I haven’t found my handheld radio and so haven’t been on the weekly net.  He plans to make a visit, and that will be nice. 

Or maybe I’ll find my radio … or maybe the horse will learn to talk (to quote the moral in a folk tale).

In the meantime, here’s a reminder …

Helping ourselves doesn’t need to mean pushing others out of the way.  It can be asking for help when we need it.  Be kind today. If you’re generous-hearted with others, you’ll get the help you need.

So,‘til next week … 

20 January …

Late blog … chaotic life … world changes … 

So how was your week?

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My upper GI track has been a bit of a problem for some time. I had a “scan” last tuesday to try to pin down why.  I have no idea what kind of a scan.  There are so many different ones now.

Result ??? 

Good news … The cyst on my pancreas hasn’t changed and poses no danger.

Also good news … nothing obvious for the localized discomfort in my upper abdomen.

Bad news … nothing obvious for the localized discomfort in my upper abdomen.

Sooooooooooooooo … onward toward a difficult diagnosis.

That’s probably too much information. Sorry.

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Weather has been mostly clear and had been cold but seems to be mellowing.  Temperatures in the 50s expected today.  Temp at dawn was 32º with frost on the ground.

Yesterday’s walkabout was a slow quarter of a mile … down to the corner where the two Aussies live (an older one and a pup … they weren’t out yet) then back to my corner and down to my neighbor Jenny’s house and back.

Later today I will take my walkabout over to the big red barn for a pedicure (I’ll count the steps).  I can no longer achieve the positions necessary for doing my own toenails, so I indulge myself.

The walkabouts are good for improving my stamina.  Win-win.

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Partially due to winter conditions, my world is quite narrow right now.  

The Juncos are still active harvesting seeds from the snow piles which resulted from the street clearing.  

There were two mated pairs of geese on the roof near the pond at the hospital, but no sign of goslings or fledglings, and a few ducks.  It’s been a while since there has been a wedge overhead.

I’ve seen the fox (in silhouette) a couple more times.  Both times at dusk.

The resident bear must still be in hibernation, or what has taken the place of hibernation with the changing climate situation.

And no further sign of raccoons or deer.

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I am enjoying holding a real book in hand while reading.  I went through the first three in not quite four days and there are more waiting to be picked up at the library.

I am planning a trip ‘round the Mountain next week.  Wish Me luck.

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And to end this short posting …

It’s okay to cry and okay to be sad.  Never blame yourself for how things turned out. Never tell yourself you can’t do better or this is the end of the road. 

It’s okay to fall but never okay to stay down.

So,‘til next week …

12 January …

It has been an interesting week weatherwise.  Snow still on the ground, but melting, with icy spots making walking and driving a challenge.

The sky vacillates between clear blue and clouds in various forms and layers.  

And temperatures between below freezing to mid-50s.

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Had a bit of a problem arranging a new primary medical care provider.  Wanted to switch to a female FNP rather than a male PA.  Took time and persistence, but I have been able to make the switch … on paper.  However, to handle a current question (problem) I have to see the PA and can’t see the FNP for at least two weeks.

The need to adjust to the new style of medical care will take a bit more time and adjustment.  

I’m from the generation when you had a doc who really knew you (sometimes from birth) and responded to you based on that knowledge rather than like now when who the doc or other person in charge of your care depends on what your current problem is and where you are … one caregiver for general office visits, another for emergent care, another for in-hospital care, another for follow-up or referral … none of whom actually know you or your personal history (and may not know any of the others) and who depend on paper (?), or on-net reports, and/or machines to choose diagnosis and treatment … often depending on information we as individuals can access on WebMD and the Mayo Clinic web sites.  In fact, I have been in an exam room and watched as an MD or a PA opened their laptop and did just such a search.

I do not think that is an improvement  In fact I’m sure it is a disservice and leads to missed diagnoses and improper care.

So I am holding positive thoughts and keeping an eye on whatever faces me.


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Also have been handling a change in banks.  I think that is also resolved.

The bank I had been dealing with was a local which was bought out by a much larger fiscal corporation which started attaching unexplained charges to my account.  So I contacted the local employees who had become friends, explained the situation while assuring them my discomfort and decision had nothing to do with them or their past care of me, and asked that my account with them be closed.

Just another example of big money valuing profit over the customer.

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Haven’t yet had a chance to make contact with the local library.

However, it looks as if I will be making trips to the Mt Shasta/Weed area at least once a week and so will resume my relationship with those librarians where it was broken last autumn.

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So much is in flux … weather, primary care provider, ability to overcome fear of driving, et al … and as a result this post will be short.

But here is food for thought … for all of us …

None of us are immune to life’s challenges.  How we move through them is what defines us.

So,‘til next week …

5 January …

The old year ended with sightings of and visits from local wildlife with whom this Village shares space.

I told you of the tracks leading down my drive from the street to my back door which I didn’t recognize.  Turns out they are/were the tracks of the four wild turkey hens which habitually visit my neighbor to the east who puts seeds up in a tree near her front door.  I don’t put out seeds so the bear won’t be enticed.  But maybe seeds during hibernation season can be acceptable.

At any rate, last wednesday evening the hens checked out my front yard area and one came up to my back door steps … again. Then they continued down Chelsea Lane toward Jenny and Terry’s house.  

Thursday as I sat at breakfast before full dawn light, I saw them as they came over the fence from the now closed RV park and headed toward the seeds in my neighbor’s yard.  I couldn’t get to my camera, but I’ve left it close to a window where I will be able to see them if they return. 

A bit later that same morning I saw the resident fox, which is about the size of a medium-sized cat but was identifiable by its typical foxtail.  It was making its way toward the greenery fence to the east.  It was still too dark to distinguish colour, but I’ve been told it is red.

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It has been COLD.  Days have been staying around freezing all day (according to the thermometer just outside my office window) with the exception of an hour or two in the early afternoon.  Friday it was 17º at dawn and tracks out my office window were deer, fox, and turkey.  By 0800 the temp had dropped to 16º.

Saturday was good until late afternoon when light snow moved in.  The Mt Shasta family had been here since 0800 and we shared the Rose Parade (which has changed a lot since I first sat on the curb overnight with friends in front of an open-all-night place, with access to hot drinks, wrapped in blankets and sleeping bags … no bleachers in those days), followed by a Plocinik/Baltimore pork and kraut meal (no dessert apple pie because Paul ate the filling the night before … oh well), and then watched the Rose Bowl game (a real nail-biter even though I’m not a football fan … and the wrong team won). But by then the snow was getting heavier, so they left to get around the Mountain (which had been glorious at sunrise … both Kamille and I took pictures) and were safe at home in good time.

Sunday was quiet with leftovers and the Vienna Orchestra’s New Year’s Eve concert repeat on PBS. 

Monday snow started lightly a bit after 0730.  Was moderate, but steady, until 1000 when it increased.  It snowed all day.  The grounds keeper started the plowing about 1600 and trash pick-up was on time.  Neighbors, who needed to go out, picked up my mail for me.   

The DirectTV was out (satellite problem but the hotspot on my phone was functioning for computer access with no problem).

A good day to stay indoors.

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There are no overhead power lines in the small community where I live. This year’s unusual fire season ended with arson investigation reports reports citing causes attributed to down power lines starting with the BAD Delta fire in mid-Californian and ending (so far) with the late season destructive fire near Denver. 

Among the problems noted was a down tree which caused the 50+ hour blackout here.

I have never liked the overhead aspect of central power.  Now I am wondering how much Pacific Power bills will increase in order to pay the power company fines.

I am also wondering what it will take for folks to go solar, at least for individual homes.  I’ve even given thought to checking to see if somehow a deal could be made with the local solar provider if all the houses in this Village went solar at the same time, factoring in the California state tax support as well as the mass sales.

Wouldn’t that be an interesting power statement?

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New Years’ Eve was a surprise for me.  I was in bed asleep by 2100, which is my normal habit, when the first gunshot woke me.  It sounded like a rather vigorous shotgun just down the street from my house.  I don’t really know where it originated and I don’t plan on asking.

However, I wasn’t prepared for it since the most New Year’s noise usual at the farm for the 45 years we were there was an airhorn and nearby large bell bongs with an occasional gunshot, at a distance, which started at midnight and lasted about 15 or 20 minutes.

The “celebration” around here, including the near part of McCloud itself and the area down Squaw Valley Road toward the golf course, started at 2100 and lasted intermittently until after 2400. 

I’ll be prepared for it next year.

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Monday, in the snow, a neighbor dragged his holiday tree down the streets to the local burn pile area.

That triggered memories of George’s feelings toward holiday trees.  He loved them.  Just a few days after Thanksgiving he would go out and pick the “perfect” tree” from somewhere on the farm, cut it, trim it for shape, set it in a bucket of sand which would be kept wet thereby keeping the tree green and delaying the drying out until the tree was finally taken down sometime around the end of February.  He loved the tree lights and the miniature village he always arranged around the base of the tree circled by the layout of some of his h-o gauge model trains.  His rationalization was that the lights and the smell of the evergreen kept the positive/happy feelings available.

I miss all that.
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As I face another week and year, I found this affirmation particular apt …

I am no longer waiting for a special occasion; I burn the best candles on ordinary days.

I am no longer waiting for the house to be clean; I understand that even dust is Sacred.

I am no longer waiting for everyone to understand me; that’s not their task.

I am no longer waiting for the other shoe to drop; it already dropped, and I survived.

I am no longer waiting for the time to be right; that time is always now.

I am no longer waiting for a quiet moment; my heart can be stilled whenever it is called.

I am no longer waiting for the world to be at peace; I unclench my grasp and hope.

I am no longer waiting to do something great; being awake to carry my grain of sand is enough.

I am no longer waiting to be recognized; I know that I dance to my own drummer in a holy circle.

I am no longer waiting for Forgiveness.

I believe …

      ― as per Mary Anne Perrone

So,‘til next week …