28 October …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Last wednesday was the first really chilly night.  I woke up about midnight and partially closed the window.  I also put on a pajama top.  

Friday morning … 32⁰ at dawn.

Monday at dawn … 24⁰.

This morning … 30⁰.

Guess I’d better make sure the extra comforter goes to be cleaned so it will be ready if it gets much colder.  

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I remember being concerned, and a bit ashamed, of my grandmother’s eyes because they were always leaking.  Now mine have started doing the same thing.  It’s a darn nuisance.

A friend told me a friend of hers was having that problem and the doctor told her it was age related dry eye and advised using eye drops.

I started last  thursday.

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When I first went to work in the Mt Shasta Emergency Department (the hospital was Eskaton at that time which became Mercy and then a branch of a Sisters of Mercy Health Care West and is now Dignity Health Care) there were two Barbaras, two Arlenes, and two Wilma. Two RNs and four LVNs and we worked without an in-house doc.  We were the complete staff.  No wonder they hired me so quickly.  

The two of us named Wilma are within a year in age.  Soon we were Little Wilma and Big Wilma (because she was so much shorter than me).

We became close friends.  We used to have a routine for our birthdays.  She would take me to a Country Music show and I would take her to see a Shakespeare play.  We’d always do dinner together and it was a broadening experience for both of us.  Eventually she would occasionally use a Shakespeare quote in conversation.  I had always liked Johnny Cash and learned to like Jackson Brown (but not Toby Keith!).  She experienced sushi (but never became a fan) and I learned biscuits, country fried steak, and gravy was a great dinner or breakfast.

She lived on the other side of the Mountain in McCloud.

Then we both reached retirement age and drifted apart.  She became a widow and I began staying close to George and eventually became a widow as well.

Last week I realized I hadn’t wished her Happy Birthday in years and her birthday was last wednesday, the 21st.  I found a card, wrote a note, and sent it.  Thursday she called.

She is going blind and has a severe hearing loss.  I’m still plugging along.  I will go over to visit soon.  

I am so glad I sent that card.

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The trees continue to change colour, but most of them are hanging onto their leaves.  The oaks have done that three years in a row.  Even the red maple, which is decorating the ground, remains quite full of leaves.  

The catalpa and birches are still leaf-loaded.  A breeze in the birches is a real trip as is sitting silently watching the catalpa leaves drift down … one at a time … with Beethoven’s 6th playing in the background.  Sort of reminds me of one of the cuts in the original Fantasia.

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Every year, around this time, I used to bake plum breakfast cakes.  They were a favorite of George’s.  

We have loads of pears and plums.  But the habit of baking for freezing is no longer pertinent.  Still, memory takes hold, … so I pureed pears for the moisture and chopped plums for the add-ins … it was an excellent (and nutritious) breakfast cake enjoyed by all.

The number of apples available is increasing so I guess apple crisp, apple pie, apple cake, apple salad, apple ??? will be next.

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Well … it isn’t official yet, but the local fire company is kaput.  There were two sleepers who were sort of the last straw.  One of them turned out to have a congenital heart condition like those which killed those young, healthy high school and college age athletes.  It is stress induced and showed up as fainting spells when on a fire call.  That left the other at the firehouse by himself so he asked for a transfer to another fire company.  Now there is essentially no one other than Mark to respond to calls.  So the dissolution which began 35 years ago (as attested to by fire fighters who were around then) is nearly complete.  

I read an article in the BBC News about Easter Island closing itself off COMPLETELY when the first COVID case showed up with tourists.

They went back to traditions from the past centered on respect and cooperation.  They had become dependent on food imports from Chile and income from tourism.  Now, just six months later, their newspaper is in their native language, they are growing their own food, preserving their past by teaching their children history and traditions, and creating a strong community wherein help is available when needed without a thought of “how much will it cost?”.

That is what this area (Hammond Ranch) had when George and I moved here and which is almost completely lacking now.

Every week it becomes easier to contemplate leaving.

Oh well …

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The other morning I awoke from a dream which sort of featured a doc I used to work with in the Emergency Department.  Don was young (of course most people are young to me), very nice-looking, had a great bedside manner, was a top notch diagnostician, had a loving wife, and knew how to handspin.

One day we were chatting during a lull in patients and the subject “What is one of your vivid memories of grade school?” came up.  I’ll never forget his answer …

I remember one of the jocks in high school who, between dances at the prom, said in a loud voice intended to carry, “Which would you rather have, a million dollars or Donnie’s nose full of nickels?”

Words can last forever.  So …

Whenever you have a choice what to be … be kind. 

‘Til next week …

21 October …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Mornings are noticeably cooler … in the low 40s.  We may even have had a frost.  There is a bit of snow on the top of the Mountain with more predicted for the future.

Still, after all those years of learning how to live in this house, my room stays where I am comfortable.  I open the east window halfway at bedtime, close it when I get up, open the windows into the solarium as soon as sunlight hits the front of the house, close them as the sun goes down.  Heat all day, fresh air (when there is no smoke) as I sleep.  Habit …

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 Last monday, at 2:30, was the 68th anniversary of the day I said “I do” and promised ‘til death do us part … for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, in bad times and in good. 

I choose to break the time limit. 

Vows and memories.

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Yesterday was a busy one. 

It started before dawn when Siku met a skunk.  Fortunately, it wasn’t near the hen house.  Skunks used to occasionally decide they liked eggs, but that’s been some time ago.  Result of the meeting?  Siku is banned from the house to kennel jail for a time.

It was the last of the produce Tailgate food sharing for this year.  I did my regular sign-in thing without any challenges over masks.  We provided fresh produce for 198 people in the local area.  The weather was nice.  I left home with three layers of clothing and dropped only one all day.  This last sharing included Lots of corn on the cob, a Huge number of huge bell peppers, apples, pears, frozen strawberries, yams, and potatoes.  Next tailgate won’t be until April.

Then went to Yreka to do some research for HLA and for our water situation.  As I was going through the check point. as I entered the Courthouse, I was stopped by the beeper.  I’d forgotten I still had my knife in my pocket (the one I use to open sacks of chicken feed).  Oops … but they just set it aside to return to me as I left the building.  Guess I don’t fit the terrorist profile.

I was able to get a copy of the deed for the property beside the reservoir which has been causing problems with trespass and parking in road space for years.  I had called the local title company to ask about ordering a copy and they said they’d do it, but the price would be $500.00 !!!  So I went to the County Recorder’s office and got a copy for $7.00.  

Also went to the office of the State Superior Court and ordered a copy of the decision in a water case from back before the turn of the century.  That will cost me about $25.00.

An hour drive in each direction, but that’s thinking time.  And stopped to get take-out for dinner.  By the time I got the chickens put away, I was pooped and ready for bed.

BUT … that lasted until about 8:30 when the dog started barking.  Must have been a bear rambling through.

Oh well …

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The red carpet under the maple tree is about two-thirds done.  The tree still looks full of leaves, but the ground is pretty well covered.

The catalpa is 95% yellow-green and the birches are starting to turn a lovely orange-yellow.

And the roads are edged with milkweed fluff like white lace.

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I have fallen waaaaaaaaaaaaay behind in the German classes.  I do want to get back to them as soon as life slows down a bit.  I can’t decide whether first thing each day or just before bedtime will work best.  But if I am to keep a  place in the dinner table conversations as Paul gains proficiency, I’d better start again soon. 

Today is the Weed Food Assistance sharing day, followed by the library, a trip to the grocery for some orange juice, and a visit with my friend Neera.

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Have been reading “Mexican Gothic” … sort of a gaslighting, haunted house thing set in the silver mining area of central Mexico.  Not a bad read.  And there was a dash of the past as I read.  One of the characters was described as resembling Katy Jurado.  It reminded me of the time back in 1961, when we were living in Milwaukee, Wisconsin while George was on a research assignment.  

Katy Jurado had starred, along with Gary Cooper and Grace Kelly in the film “High Noon”.  A radio announcer on one of the local stations was doing a movie report and mangling Sra. Jurado’s name … he was doing something like Kay’ tee Ger’aw ta (a bit like Geritol).  I called the station and spent twenty minutes or so trying to teach the announcer how to say Caw’ tee Hur ah’doe.  He never did get it and I finally gave up.

What surprised me about seeing the reference in the book was that the author is too young to have known about Sra. Jurado’s Hollywood time.  Still, reminders of pleasant times are always welcome.

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The chickens are in full molt and egg production varies from 3 to 7 a day.  

To close this week … a reminder from Camus …

Autumn is a second Spring when every leaf is a flower.

So … ‘til next week …

14 October …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

We had a slight change in the weather last saturday.  Rain …

We didn’t get much here, but it was enough that the ground still showed damp sunday morning.  Down river to the northwest, where the fires were a problem, they got an inch or more.

And there is even a sprinkling of snow on the very tiptop of the Mountain.

Thank you to all the singers, dancers, and prayer folks.  

Don’t stop now.

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On sunday, we went to the movie!  Really.  Our local theatre is now open on friday, saturday, and sunday with restricted seating.  We went to see “Hocus Pocus” and the five of us were the only folks in that part (plex?) of the theatre.  There were other folks there, but they were in the other areas seeing different movies. 

Strange new world.

And as an aside … did you know the “magical” words Hocus Pocus are believed to be a perversion of the Latin blessing from the Catholic mass, Hoc est corpus meum, or “This is my body.” 

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Signs of autumn …

Milkweed and cattails dressed in their fluff … dragonflies in aerial mating dances … brown carpet with red leaf patterns under the maple … nose nipping morning temperatures in the LOW 40s … light (welcome) smoke in the air from morning woodstove fires … hot cereal for breakfast … 

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A few days ago, as I was on my way home from the store, I looked across the lower meadow and saw a tree stump which had been torn out and tossed aside.  One of the roots was pointing right at the Mountain.  I took that as a reminder to really look at everything.  My move next year will take me back to southern California where I grew up and lived until 1976.  All the scenes I cherish from my time here will be memories to sustain me and so I am learning to look closer than ever.

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Pizza at the Firehouse” last thursday went well.  There were three no-shows and we were able to accommodate two walk-ups.  We had my friend Sally who was the main presenter of the information, my friend Neera who was the greeter, and me plus an audience of fifteen.

As usual, the pizza was not to my taste because it was pretty bland, but we had to supply what would be acceptable to most people.  I’m a fan of “whatever you can find … add it”.  Garbage pizza.

I had been thinking about a way to end the “show” which would make folks remember at least some of what they heard.  I know from experience that if I am bored I forget easily, and so decided I would be the fool at the end with laughs to help them remember.

I  had found individually wrapped toilet paper rolls at the local Grocery Outlet.  When I whipped out the tp the laughs were audible.  So I told them a true story about a neighbor who ran out of toilet paper during a snowstorm and was in a panic.  

I pointed out that tp is useful for more than wiping your bum … nosebleeds and other bleeds such as skinned knees etc., wiping up spills and tears, noseblowers and napkins, with mother-spit it washes faces, etc.

All in all, we did a bit more than okay.

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Here’s a reverse brag.

One day last week I saw a big, black, honkin’ pick-up truck with “100% certified white boy” painted on the side.  My inclination was to take my key and scratch “100% white girl, family line back to 1620, … and I say phooey.

But I didn’t do it.

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There will be only one more meeting of this HLA Board and that will be to acknowledge the new Board.  I had high hopes, but only one of those who were said to have agreed to serving on the Board showed up for the meeting.

There are a couple of meaty problems awaiting a new Board … roads and the fire coverage situation.  One local fire company has already closed with two others, including ours, on the rocks.  The new folks to the area expect the service but also expect someone else to provide it.

I’m toying with ideas to try to motivate possible volunteers, but haven’t yet had any inspiration.  Maybe a chart showing current fire insurance costs and the change if there is no local coverage mailed to all landowners?

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The SpinTogether week is over and my output was a bit over 6,000 yards.  I’d hoped for more, but it was another chaotic week.  I am pleased, however, with what I did get spun.  I know our team couldn’t compete with the professional handspinners who use electric wheels, some of whom spin bulky yarns, but I think we did okay.

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To close this week, I saw this in a book I am reading (“The Angel of the Crows” by K. Addison)

When asked “Are you okay?” it is acceptable to say “No, I’m not okay, but I’m alive, and that will have to do.”

So … ‘til next week …

7 October …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Three fires in the Weed/Mt Shasta area last week.  Two in an area north of Weed, one of which may have been a meth lab explosion and one on the Mountain which was most likely started by intruders into a closed forest area.

Pray for rain.

Dance for rain.

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 The wild animals have been moving, whether from weather or just the time of year … I don’t know.  What I do know is that they seem to be escaping ending up as roadkill.  I’ve been seeing skid marks on the local roads, even the gravel ones, lots of skid marks but no smashed remains.  Might be deer or wild turkeys or the bear sow with triplets causing the skids … but, of course, in the case of the sow and cubs it might be the driver who could wind up as roadkill.  I’ve learned to keep an eye out for any animals on the road.

I guess the skids are made by folks who don’t know the area and are probably driving too fast.

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All the Canada geese are gone.  It seems strange to drive past the reservoir area and not see geese, ducks, herons, or any birds.  The sand cranes seem to have gone south as well.  It’s been a week since I’ve seen or heard them.

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Remember me telling you the oaks weren’t dropping all their leaves the last two autumns?  Well, it’s happening again.  The trees look so strange with all the clusters of dried leaves.  However, the acorn crop seems to be great.

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Last sunday things went whooee-boy.  The weather changed to smoke and chill. A fire academy trainee under Mark came back to visit.  Tyler‘s battery seemed to have gone dead so Kamille took off to jump start him.  Mark got home with Kendrick (the visitor) and before they could settle in to talk, Mark had to go out to rescue both Tyler and Kamille. 

But finally things calmed down and we had a nice dinner together.

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There are some changes happening in living arrangements.  Tyler has found a place with a friend in Weed.  Two rooms, several closets, a bath, and plenty of room for his animal collection.  I will miss seeing him, even occasionally.  His aim is to be on his own so I doubt he’ll be around much. 

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The annual spinning week began last saturday. So far I am bombing out. Things I had promised to help with required doing NOW, plus early evenings and late mornings are cutting into lighted spin time. Three days and only two bobbins full. Still, at lace weight that could be some good yardage.

And today is a full day. I’ll be on my way in about half and hour and be home who knows when. So the thought for this week ...

 A fleeting moment” — funny words for a twelve-year-old to dream.

When I woke up, I felt great, as if the veil of sadness had lifted.  A spiritualist would say that I had experienced a visitation.  A psychologist would say that my subconscious had manufactured this dream scenario to fulfill an emotional need for closure.  In any case, I learned what would turn out to be a valuable lesson: that something terrible can happen to you, and yet, the day after this something terrible, the sun still rises, and life goes on.  And therefore, so must you.

… from Martin Short’s autobiography “I Must Say”

‘Til next week …