26 August …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Last saturday the first item I saw on the morning news feed was that California is asking Australia for firefighters.   I looked at a map and found the entire three quarters of the state south of us, as well as the two counties east of us, would appear to be on fire.  

And yesterday a headline read “California blazes have scorched more than 1.5 million acres and killed 6 people.” 

There was a reach-out to Mark seeking any kind of help available but he has none to send … of those on the roster one is ill, one unable to commit to a three week assignment due to being in Fire Academy (he can respond here but can’t miss otherwise), another is unable to sign on for three weeks (the minimum contract time) due to family concerns, one does not have a license to drive the big trucks, and Mark (in addition to being the local Fire Chief) has his church to look after as well as being responsible for homeschooling Paul.  One task the landowners’ association will have to take on in the coming days is emphasizing the need for increased fire coverage in our area and that means more locals have to get involved.

Mark has been working diligently to get our home acreage cleared as much as possible.  When you live in a forest (which has grown up over the last forty years) that is a continuing task.  Fortunately we have a good well and the immediate area around the house is being kept watered.

One thing about these fires which I can’t understand is that the wine country in the center of the state (Napa-Sonoma just north of San Francisco) has burned over at least three times in the last four  years.  What is there left to burn?

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Last week I mentioned the article in the Smithsonisn about travel in the Edo Era in Japan.   The author spent time retracing the routes and making comparisons.  His observations included vivid impressions of bath and toilet facilities, bedding, paving or lack thereof, and available food … (acceptable and/or exciting vs repulsive including snake wine, fermented octopus in vinegar, boiled horse intestines in miso, and fresh bear liver).  I’m not sure I would have made a good traveler in those days … at least not a well-fed one.

However, I was caught by the end observation of an Edo Road traveler from back then who noted …

The moon and sun are eternal travelers.  Even the years wander on.  Every day is a journey and the journey itself is home.”

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Another death …

In the past, George and I “manned” a fire lookout on top of Paradise Craggy overlooking the Anderson Grade between California and Oregon (its unique claim to fame used to be that the outhouse was cantilevered on 4x4s out over a 250’ straight down drop … it has, since our time, been re-engineered to be more secure with angle bracing and solid flooring rather than spaced planking.  

Every spring the USFS and CalFire would hold a training session for those of us signed up to do lookout duty and we got to know a lot of the regulars.  One was Nancy Hood who (in 2015) had been a USFS lookout for well over 50 years, mostly at the Lake Mountain Lookout in the Six Rivers district.

Now news that the final call has gone out for another of the old-timers … Joel Smith, of the Siskiyou Bear Lookout just across the Oregon border in the Shasta-Trinity Forest, with whom George used to chat when fire danger was low.

“Status 3. Time to come home.”

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Last thursday I received an unexpected gift from Mark.  

Some time ago, I was doing family history research into Professor John Henry (Johannes Henrich) Kurzenknabe, one of my husband’s maternal great-grandfathers.  He was born in Germany in 1840, immigrated to the US when he was 15 bringing with him only the barest necessities and a violin, fathered 15 children (George’s grandmother was #8), and died in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania in 1927.

As part of that research I found a collection of hymns he had composed while serving with the Salem Reformed Church in Harrisburg.  I gathered them together into a book which I added to my genealogical shelf where Mark found them.  He took the collection to his church and showed it to their organist who proceeded to start to play after figuring out that one was in an unusual time (like Dave Brubeck’s work).

Mark recorded a selection on his phone and brought it to share with me … a real gift.

I look forward to hearing more.

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Our problem concerning the water, which ran across our land for over forty years providing us with electricity and a full water tank for firefighting and which was arbitrarily cutoff a couple of years ago, is reaching an end.  The  result is not what I had hoped but is consistent with today’s world and holds trouble for most of the holders of smaller water rights in Siskiyou County, particularly those who use hydro for alternative energy generation.

It has been found that 1. our water rights apply only during the wet season (November to March which makes no sense since our adjudicated rights are for irrigation); 2. that our low number rights (#12 on our section of the Shasta River) are harmful to higher number holders downstream (#s in the 20s) so our water will be withheld at the discretion of the Deputy Watermaster; and 3. that non-consumptive power generation is not allowed on our land regardless of how long it had been in use approved by whichever or however many government agencies. 

Our attorney says we have a strong case for a court challenge, just maybe not a SURE case in Siskiyou County where the downstream users are mostly historical family ranches and County agencies and officials (including elected judges) are also often members of historical families.  

And at fee rates for good attorneys, we can’t afford a court case.  

So … that is one more reason to think about leaving this land since the things of life which brought George and me here, and sustained us all those years, are disappearing.  After all, it is impossible to leave something which has already left you.

I do find pockets which are mostly the same, and I cherish them, but there are fewer and fewer of them every month.  The people, places, and events which do remain become more and more precious as memories.

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Two friends are having cataract surgeries in the next month.  I am grateful that mine have been done and that I am still strong and healthy enough to provide support for others.  

All the radio club events were cancelled this year.  But my mind and memory remain clear enough to put notes and information from past years in order so that whomever takes over as event coordinator will have a head start.

The importance of the food sharing outreach in this county is more important than ever and my volunteer time is appreciated.

The trees and meadow flora are as beautiful as ever as the seasons change.

Even as my life changes … still I am blessed.  

Forgive my nostalgia for both the past and the future.

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I had gotten a bit tired of the words wasted (at least in my opinion) by Jonathan Kellerman on the clothes (in minute detail) worn by the characters in his mystery novels.  The descriptions rarely (if ever) added anything to the plot by way of clues or explanation.  So I tend to overlook Kellerman books.  Then I came across “The Golem of Hollywood” by Jonathan AND Jesse Kellerman, father-son combo.  It’s a 550 page opus of modern murders and re-interpretation of Biblical and cultural Jewish myths/legends/tales (although those may actually be the same), a book within a book … and I was pleasantly surprised.  It was not too difficult to distinguish between the writing styles and Jonathan apparently dropped the need to tell me what people were wearing, at least for this book.  I wound up enjoying and learning … a great combination for any book.

What capped it was a lesson offered near the end of the book, by a once-and-future Rebbe (nod here to T.H.White), noting that braggadocio is most often the result of anguish and envy … a thought which helped me understand why I sometimes respond to the Tweets posted by a currently well-known individual with a sad icon rather than with an angry one.

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Much of current news is such that thoughts about responsibilities are triggered.  The tasks that fall to those of us who are granted a longer life than the norm are #1. to be available without intruding and #2. to accept that the “future” is no longer ours but belongs to the young.

“One of the most important steps you can take to help calm the storm is to not allow yourself to be taken in a flurry of overwrought emotion or despair – thereby accidentally contributing to the swale and the swirl. Ours is not the task of fixing the entire world …”     Clarissa Pinkola Estes

So … ‘til next week …

19 August …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Last week began with a bang.  

This showed up on Facebook.  

This isn’t a joke … Netflix picked Weed as one of the funniest towns in America! Celebrate with us* (from a safe distance) on Wednesday 8/12 from 7 am to 2 pm! Netflix is picking up the tab on all to-go orders! Some limitations apply. Our online ordering will be suspended during this time. Call (530) 938-2904 or stop by to place an order. 

(the us* was the HiLo restaurant I’ve told you about)  

Since we are not ones to pass up a free meal, I showed up to get in line a bit before 1100 and was turned away.  The frazzled young man from NetflixIsAJoke said there was already a line of folks who would be served by 1400 which was his cutoff time for paying.  Too bad.  Their advertising was not untruthful but was definitely misleading.  And they should have realized this is an impoverished community so a lot of folks would welcome a free meal.

Not making the cut was too bad for me and for Netflix since I would have made a great interview … I live in the HIGH Meadow above WEED.

Oh well …

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Then came sunday … outdoor temperature before dawn was 79° with only enough breeze to move the birch leaves.  I had left a piece of chocolate on my desk (I get a craving every so often) and it was so soft that when I tried to break off a piece it wrapped itself around my finger.  Humidity was low as well.  Prime fire weather.

Even with those conditions, there is no room for complaints.  Family members in southeast Iowa and Chicago had a killer storm, Lake Michigan is sloshing back and forth like bathtub water, there were lightning caused fires in Pismo Beach, it was 130° in Death Valley, and a lot of California is on fire. 

79° with a slight breeze could be worse.

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I have finally joined the ranks of those banned from a Facebook page for being “unkind”.  We have a local page where notices of fire and medical calls in the County are noted as they come over first responder pagers.  The instant a call is posted, there are women (one in particular who appears to be in constant attendance since her first response is within seconds) who instantly flood the page with comments stating “PRAYING”.  

I find it annoying to have to scroll through all the piousness before I can see what is happening in response to an emergency.  So I posted a query as to why they were ignoring Jesus’ advice reported in Matthew 6:5&6.  For that I was banned for being disruptive and unkind.

Woe is me.  Oh well …

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Yesterday was another Tailgate day.  I’m in charge of signing folks in and, as usual the last couple of months, there is one man who refuses to wear a mask and is loud and pushy about it.  I mouthed back at him this month and he reported me.  The person to whom he reported me asked why he wasn’t complying with the Governor’s mandate that masks be worn in public.  His response was the usual blather stating he didn’t need to wear a mask because he was safe since we were all wearing masks and ending with he “won’t be told what to do”.  My boss responded that this was our event and if he didn’t want to cover his face he could leave.  

I wonder what next month will bring.

As I mentioned last month, the variety of produce is down.  We had GIANT zucchini this month and huge Armenian cucumbers and corn in the husks and very ripe cantaloupes.  We also had cases of peanut butter, both creamy and chunky.  I brought home six jars.  That should hold the boys for pb&j sandwiches for a time.

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I finally got around to reading the latest issue of the Smithsonian magazine.  It is FULL … Bonobos and ancient roads and McCarthy’s defense of Nazi war criminals and virus hunters and ice cream trucks and fire poles.

One article was about the samurai roads which ran between Edo (now called Tokyo) and Kyoto during the “Edo Era” of the 17th, 18th, and 19th centuries when Japan was closed to ALL outsiders.  Any non-Japanese who dared step outside Nagasaki, which was the only port where foreign ships were allowed until Perry’s invasion, or any Japanese who tried to leave Japan were instantly executed.  But for those allowed to travel the roads, it was an essential part of traveling to paint what you saw or to write haiku about what you experienced.  Travelers were admonished to travel light with the exception of “ink and brush for drawing and journals for poems”.

This centuries old unsigned haiku (be warned, the syllable count is incorrect in English) triggered recall of my paean to green outside my window a week or so ago …

White clouds,

Green leaves, young leaves,

For miles and miles.

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Are there Sherlock fans reading this blog?  

There has been a discussion on Facebook concerning who best portrayed Holmes on tv.  I vote … Jeremy Brett !!!  

That sudden, short-lived, almost smile …

The what-did-you-just-say look … 

The ah-ha moments … 

The moves …  

The vocal inflections …  

Brett didn’t portray Holmes.  He became Holmes.  George and I watched the first showings on PBS together although George wasn’t a reading fan of Holmes.  For us there was never a question … BRETT.

As for the written word … Watson’s tellings, of course.

Then, a couple of years ago I was introduced by a friend to the Mary Russell books written by Laurie R. King, starting with The Beekeeper’s Apprentice.  Fantasy mystery … great fun.

As an aside … were you aware that Holmes’ original name in Doyle’s handwritten notes was Sherrinford Hope?

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Morning chicken time is getting later and later (with a bit of morning chill).  Seems only a few days ago the hens were calling before 0500 and the sun was up by 0515.  Now the time to let them out is after 0645.  In past years the requirement was that I get up to pour breakfast juice and go out to the chickens by 0530. Now, with COVID, we time with the sun rather than the clock since Paul will be home schooling and we don’t know what Kamille’s schedule will be.  I laze in bed until after 0545 or even 0600.

One of the hens who lays brown eggs has begun laying soft or semi-soft shelled eggs (bottom round end hard with pointy top end soft).  Picking up a pliable shelled egg is a real trick.  

I think the perpetrator may be the hen with the crooked beak, the one we call Picasso.  I have been adding dried and broken egg shells to their feed for the calcium and I may need to crush the shells smaller for her.  Otherwise, she seems to have done well with her x-shaped beak. 

A lesson in succeeding in the face of challenge.

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Part of getting older is sifting through all the projects you intended to finish one day.  Well … the days are dwindling down to a precious few and I’ve been sorting.

I have my Nana’s OLD! dome-topped travel trunk which I am unable to let go (it came west with her from Kansas in 1885).  It was full of unspun fiber and lots and lots of handspun yarn in a broad array of luscious colours.  My granddaughter is a knitter with a capital K.  So guess who will be receiving boxes.  Three boxes went into the mail yesterday.  There are two more boxes of some commercial 4-ply as well as more handspun waiting to be sent.  This should keep her knitting well into 2021.  

And I still have enough fiber and yarn in the cedar chest to keep me busy for months.

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The constant news items about masks left me thinking about the pros and cons of mask wearing.  One con no one has mentioned (at least if they have, I failed to see it) is the inability to see smiles under masks.  I miss seeing smiles.  I guess I’ll have to learn how to identify a smile by eyes. 

I’ve begun telling folks when I’m smiling at them.  I don’t know if it does anything for them, but it does make me feel a bit better.

On that thought …

None is so rich or mighty that they can get along without smiles, and none so poor but they can be made rich by them.

Smiles cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen for it is something that is of no value until it is given away.

When you see someone too tired or depressed to give you a smile, give them one of yours.  No one needs a smile so much as he who has none to give. 

So … ‘til next week …

12 August …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

The weather has been a bit cooler, the sun is rising later, and the angle of the sunbeams coming in the window is changing.  All because I live at 40+ degrees north latitude.  I remember growing up further south where the length of days changes very little.  As I have said before, repeatedly, I didn’t understand the Robert Louis Stevenson poem until I moved north …

In winter I get up by night and dress by golden candle light.     

In summer quite the other way, I have to go to bed by day.

Well … my candles are ready.

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There is a family of sand cranes hanging out in our meadow near the driveway entrance to the property.  There is an adult pair (did you know sand cranes mate for life?) and this year’s colt (I just learned that is the name for baby cranes).

Cranes are such interesting creatures.  They are so gawky on those long stilts of legs.  Their tail feathers make a funny bustle on their rears.  They stretch waaaaaaaaay out when they fly with neck stretched in front and legs straight out behind.  And their call is raucous and rude sounding. 

All cranes are symbols of good fortune in Asia, and they are good parents.  I’ve never seen a colt (I like that name) by itself and when I’ve seen one with adults it is always between the two. 

The choice of our meadow for their summer home is a blessing.

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On the other hand … there is an exciting and rather scary addition to the local indigeneous wildlife … a bear sow with triplets.  She has been seen to the east of us and captured on motion sensitive cameras in several places.  

It is nice to see wildlife doing well in spite of city incursions.  But the thought of facing a sow with three cubs …

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The first of the planned “Pizza at the Fire House” evenings went well.  There were only eight folks there in addition to the presenter and the fire fighters.  But for a “community” without a center and no cohesion, that’s not bad for a starter and if each person tells one other person the way to prepare for an emergency, such as a fire, knowledge and safety will spread.

I’ve been having thoughts about better “advertising” for the next time … maybe posters featuring a picture of a large pizza with bigger lettering of the word 

⇒ P i z z a ⇐

stapled to trees all over the area?  And a postcard mailing?

Of course, we can’t have too big a gathering and still adhere to COVID regulations.

Oh well …

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Lunch packing is done for this year, but there are three more “Tailgate” sessions left before winter. 

The problems created by the pandemic restrictions are affecting food production in the California Central Valley.  Restrictions show in the kind and amount of fresh produce available for the give-away sessions.  I remember last year when one month we were able to hand out full flats of sumptuous strawberries.  The best we’ve done so far this year has been bags of grapes, small boxes of blackberries, and small watermelons … and those only once.  

We have even been skimpy of zucchini.

In addition, there is more past-prime produce in what does arrive.  Fortunately, here at Cold Comfort we have chickens so I bring home boxes of scraps and over-ripe stuff and that way not all goes to waste.  As I once said in a poem … garbage out, eggs in.

I know there must be food rotting in the fields.  To the north of us the potato farmers were piling their crop in heaps and advertising “come and take as much as you want”.

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I recently saw a photo of Michele Obama in which she was wearing a glittery shawl patterned of large open squares with looooonnnnnnnnnnnnng fringes on the bottom.  She was wearing it over a black outfit.  I was captivated.  

I have some basically black fiber with small flashes of glitter colour.  I wonder … if I spin it very fine, triple ply, and then crochet …

Maybe I could wear it over white, light blue, or grey.  

Maybe I’m too advanced in age for that kind of a fashion statement. 

But then … maybe I’m not.

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 At my age, little joys are precious.  If these blogs seem to be getting less ebullient, it’s probably because I am no longer on the fast track.  I’m seeing things through old eyes, which have already seen a lot, and so I am not finding much to call new.

However, there is still joy.  Like last sunday morning, before sunrise, but as the light was increasing, looking out my south window toward the meadow I could see green … green … green … more shades of green than I could count.  

Not more than I could appreciate.  

Just more than I could count.  

The catalpa was light green shading toward yellow.  The birches were bluish green, their branches showing as streaks of white, with their foliage flashing in the breeze.  The lilac was pale green with just a tinge of sepia showing where the flower clusters had been.  The fir close to the house was forest green with dark shadows and light tips.  Firs further away, toward the mountains to the south where the sun hits first, were lush green and full of light.  There were dark brown spots in the pines where some of last year’s needle clusters are still hanging on.  Those spots were more noticeable because of the clear glow of this year’s green offerings.  

Adjectival descriptions are meager.  I wish you could see through my eyes.  

As was said by A. A. Milne …

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.

It’s just old age renamed “situational depression”.

So … remember to give someone a full smile every day.  They may need it more than you know, and even more than you do.

‘Til next week …

5 August …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Day 144 of the lockdown …  

There are still some who question the necessity for masks but, with a nursing background, I tend to think wearing them is a safeguard.  I don’t like it.  Never did.  Not when I was working.  Not now.  But I will continue to wear mine.

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The weather here has remained warm, on the verge of hot, and dry with humidity in the teens.  Fortunately, the fires are around us and in the lower part of the state.  A watering schedule has been set up around the house and most of the clearing has been done.  The trees, both deciduous and evergreen, are shades of green. And the air is clear now that the wind has changed direction.

There is a place very close which is being rented out as a campsite (without permits so far … but that’s a different tale) which was noted to have a campfire last week.  A bit scary, but the campers were very accommodating when asked to be aware of the danger to the area and put out the fire.

Makes me wonder if the owner is aware of his liability (he lives 5 hours away and is supposed to be “overseeing” campers), which in this weather could run into the millions were a fire to get out of hand.

Oh well …

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Only one more morning (tomorrow) of preparing lunches for south county kids in need.  And still no concrete decision about whether or not schools will open.  

Some loud opinions being voiced about kids NEEDING to be together made me think about the years of radio schooling in the Australian Outback.  Those children would sometimes go months without seeing anyone other than their immediate family and the hired help on the station.  I never heard that they suffered from lack of a good education, and they seem to have matured into an adult society much like other adult societies.  

Of course, because those stations were pretty much self-sufficient, those children didn’t go hungry.  So maybe we need to concentrate on seeing that children don’t go hungry, have access to communication, and as a result education will follow.

Call me a dreamer, but wouldn’t it be nice if that were part of the new world following this pandemic?

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Tomorrow is the first of the planned “Pizza at the Fire House” evenings.  There are two goals …

1. To make contact between more of the locals and the fire fighting personnel, and

2. To distribute information about planning for a fire and possible evacuation. 

The fun comes with planning with COVID restrictions in mind. Fortunately, weather is not a problem so a lot of what is planned can be set up outdoors (and being the first event of this kind makes all planning new).  Letting folks see the equipment, meet the firefighters, listen to the emergency planning spiel, and eat pizza can all be set up spaced in and around the firehouse.  We aren’t expecting a lot of people, since this is a first, which means there are no rules.  We’ll see how it goes and replan for the next time which is scheduled for the first week in September.

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Had an interesting thing happen a couple of weeks ago.  One day, out of the blue, more than two-thirds of my Facebook “friends” were unfriended, but not by me.  I am gradually getting them back, but it was a jolt.  

I’ve seen posts from others who had the same experience.  Seems normal is no longer normal in a lot of places.  Guess I’ll just check my “friends” list occasionally.

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The family spent last monday at Crater Lake.  I remember years ago when George and I went the first time.  It was late summer and we were the only ones there.  That is happening more now with restrictions in place.  There were controlled one direction lines in place for the information centers and the prime outlooks.

It seemed to have been an enjoyable day.  Mark reminisced.  Kamille saw more of the west.  Paul wrote and drew pictures of the area (the caldera, Wizard Island, and the Phantom Ship).  He even had a conversation with one of the tourist-wise chipmunks.  

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With all the finger-pointing going around, my thoughts recently  turned to “blame” … what is it? why do we feel it is necessary? who is our favorite target? why them? does it really make us feel better?  more secure? stronger? less identifiable? even maybe blameless? 

And conversely … what if we always accept the blame?

Sometimes pondering can be heavy.

To criticize ourselves when we make mistakes is not useful. Learn from mistakes. The definition of a spiritual person is someone who makes 30-50 mistakes each day and talks to the Creator after each one to see what to do next time. 

Today let me see my mistakes as a positive process. Let me learn the aha’s of life.  Awaken my awareness so I can see the learning designed for my life.

         … Adapted from the Pawnee

So … ‘til next week …