24 March …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

A full year since we went into lockdown. Nearly 550 thousand dead in the US. And the week started with March still trying to be the lion … 

Monday was the most interesting.  When I woke for a loo run at 0530 it was just snowing a bit (light corn snow).  By 0645, when the house began to come alive (no school that day), it was snowing pretty good.  0715 … rain.

This morning it is chilly with only isolated patches of snow left and I will be meeting friends in town for breakfast so this will be short.

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Reading has been offering me a bit of a conundrum.  Last week I brought home a book by Neil Gaiman for Paul called Pirate Stew (on the advice of the librarian).  It is written in Gaiman’s version of poetry … meaning I couldn’t identify the style as anything other than Gaiman.

Of course, I had to read the book first and discovered it is a kid’s story but done with a Gaiman touch.

Since it was late and a school night, every one went their separate ways and as I settled into bed to read before dropping off to sleep I found my mind trying to rearrange the words in a new book, a comfort food book (like eating mac and cheese) set in 1933 Lambeth in London, into the undefined poetry I just had been reading.  Talk about being confused …

I put down the book and finally got to sleep.  The next time I picked up the new book the words had put themselves back into the proper prose style.

However, it happened again a couple of evenings later.  I was re-reading The Last Unicorn by Peter Beagle and when I settled into bed I found I was thinking in Beagle’s style of writing fantasy.

Maybe I’ll try to find a copy of Chaucer in Olde English to read and see what happens.

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Listening to Paul practice (?) on the electronic drums he got for Christmas reminded me of a couple of maxims I’ve heard regarding practicing …

From one of Lily Tomlin’s monologues … How do you get to Carnegie Hall?  Practice. Practice. Practice.

I can’t remember the source of the other … To become an expert don’t practice until you’ve got it right, practice until you can’t get it wrong. 

With Paul and drums, he will either continue to practice because he wants to be a drummer or he’ll practice until he’s allowed to stop.  I’m not taking odds.  Mark has such good timing and loves music so much …

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Today is grandson Tyler’s 24th birthday.  A nostalgic day for me.  I remember so clearly the summers when he was here and still small and cuddly enough to come downstairs in the morning to curl up on my lap.

I love him and am grateful for him and the moments of joy he has given me. 

I am wishing a Blessed day and coming year for him. 

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Spent part of yesterday trying to trace the children in a genealogical photo taken at the turn of the last century.  I had tried before and had no success.  I did hear a story about “Uncle John’s” children and tried tracing that lead without luck.  

This time I reached out to a Dibelka in Omaha but no one there recognized the children as resembling anyone in that branch of the family.

However, the cousin who had told me about “Uncle John” in the past contacted me again and said she had stories.  Turns out that Uncle John married into the Kaspar line which joined the Dibelka line with George’s paternal grandmother.  Confusing enough?  But gold to a genealogist.  So I have lots of days of research ahead.  No time to get bored.

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Saw this on Facebook last thursday …

“Sometimes a moment comes that transports you back decades into the world of your past. … every so often I can’t help but think of what was, and what then ensued.”

… Dan Rather

So ‘til next week …

17 March …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

As part of my upcoming move (without a date set yet) there are several things that keep popping up in my thoughts.  One consistent one concerns what I will miss. 

This last blast of winter (at least we’re ready for it to be the last) has taken me in several different directions.  It has been similar to, but not really the same as, when we first came to live on this land. 

In those winters, we had SNOW … waist high with drifts deep enough in which to lose children.  There were winters when we couldn’t see out the north windows since the snow reached the eaves.  

This late season has been almost as if the past is saying “Remember …”.  May be a way of telling me goodbye.  And that set me to thinking “Yes, I will miss you.  But what I remember and am already missing no longer exists, except in flashes.” 

Somethings I won’t miss … going out to the chickens thorough snow topping my boots is one of them.  But I was so much younger then and had George to help with path making.   

Being shut in by weather now means there isn’t much to tell you.  You’ve heard my impressions of the beauty of the snow and that hasn’t changed.  Being surrounded by forest is still a blessing to be savored as long as I have it.  And believe it or not, when the air smells of snow it is soothing.

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Current reading is a combination of fantasy (although it is predictive fantasy) in the area of lakes Huron and Michigan, and my go-to comfort reading (a time warp mystery ) takes me to England in 1933.

The fantasy is an interesting read.  The author uses a real mixed bag of characters and pays no attention to chronology so the people get mixed around and the timeline is haphazard.  A challenging read, but an interesting one.

Titles?  Station Eleven and Elegy for Eddie.

I wonder at and am surprised by the broad spectrum of writers who envisioned this pandemic.  The time, setting, and result varies, but the basics are there … and the publish dates range over the last sixty years from Heinlein, Bradbury, and Asimov to Butler and some fairly new authors, i.e. since the turn of the century.

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Today I will make a trip to Yreka.  

I have been having an annoying something in my right eye for about a week.  It feels like a grain of sand, is at the spot next to that little tab in the corner of my eye nearest my nose, and doesn’t change position. 

I’ve tried rinsing it and using allergy eyedrops.  So far nothing has worked.  The annoyance is not consistent.  It comes and goes without discernible cause or a time schedule.  Want to bet that when I see the eye doctor this morning it will stay quiet?

While in Yreka I will also pay the second installment of the property taxes and maybe do a bit of shopping.  I’m running short of printer ink.

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As usual, the time change had me discombobulated.  I had changed my wind-up clock and the little one at my bedside, but had depended on the computer and the telephone to do their thing.  They didn’t.  So for all day sunday I was double checking to see just what time it was. 

I found that the computer had been set on manual rather than automatic and got that corrected.  Then found that my phone (landline not smart) doesn’t have an automatic setting, at least not one I can find, but I learned how to do the reset.  Everything seems to finally be in sync.

Oh well …

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Time to get ready to leave, so to end this week …   

Thinking about Jacob wrestling with the angel … all his life, Jacob was focused on not being Esau. His identity was wrapped up in wanting to be Esau.  However, he had to leave and endure his own unique problems.  Maybe the struggle with the angel was emblematic of his struggle to establish his own identity.  

Like Dr Seuss says “… there is nobody youer than you”.  We have all been created with gifts and limitations and do our best to navigate our lives.  We need to be grateful for the gifts and even the struggles we encounter along the way.  Every day comes and then is gone forever. Make it count! 

— Author unknown

‘til next week …

10 March ..,.

Winter made a return last weekend, hung around until today, and may not be done yet. Reminds me of a song from a Broadway production many years ago … March came in like a lion, a kickin’ up the waters in the bay.  Then April sighed and stepped aside, and along came pretty little May.

Four inches of soft snow last saturday morning.  Then a fair melt sunday.  Then a dusting of fresh snow early monday morning, followed by sun, followed by sun with snow, followed by heavier snow, then more snow on tuesday.  Woke up this morning to a foot of new, fresh, powder snow.

Oh well … 

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Have I told you that I recently found out that the site George and I called home for over forty years was called Pigeon Pass (but of course not in English) by the indigenous tribe (the Shasta) which had used it as a summer hunting and gathering camp?  I knew there was a spot down the road where hunters went in season for doves but had not equated doves with pigeons.

I’ve been thinking about that a lot … the past that is.

I recently learned of the lateness of a couple more of my memories (“late” is a steal from Alexander McCall Smith’s Mma Ramostwe series where when you die you become “Late”).   

A nextdoor neighbor from my Pomona days, when John (my first) was young and before Michael (my second) was born, has died … age and Parkinsons’s.  Her son was two years younger than John.  She had been a ballerina before she married.  That intrigued me.  She was a couple of years younger than I and was the one with whom I laughed when the current saying was “Don’t trust anyone over 30”.  

And another friend, with whom I graduated High School almost seventy-four years ago, has been rescued from the “looney bin” (his designation) and is bedridden, remembering less each day, living in his daughter’s home now.

And another classmate “late”.  

And to top it off, last evening the family (the equivalent of four generations … 9 to 90) watched “A Hard Day’s Night”.  Everyone was laughing.  The Beatles were so young, so talented, and so full of themselves.  Next family movie  suggestion?  “Help”.

Right now I fear I may be dropping into “I remember …” mode often what with deaths and old movies.

Do please forgive me.  Chalk it up to age, a gift which comes complete with caveats … 

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When the weather creates stay-where-you-are situations, I read.

Am nearly finished with the third book in the Tudor trilogy of alternative history.  The relationships between families of power in those times were so convoluted that I think a wall mounted clue board with lines showing connections like some detectives on the telly use (and is a feature in other mystery books as well) would  be helpful.  However, on second thought, I might have trouble finding a wall big enough for the Tudors and the Stuarts and the Seymours and the …

Still, maybe sometime in the future I’ll re-read the series and see if I can set up a clue board.  Maybe organize a book club reading so several of us could get lost in time. That should provide me with a good sized to-do list and keep me out of trouble.

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I’ve begun thinking about where I want to travel once I am resettled.  First trip will probably be back to the Chicago area.  That’s where George grew up and there is still family there.  Could maybe do some family research, some museum hopping (back to the Art Museum for Colleen Moore’s doll house and the Monets)), food tasting, and …

And maybe a trip down the Mississippi to Mardi Gras once this COVID thing passes enough to allow travel.  And although I’m not big on crowds, a cruise up to Alaska might be an idea.  And I’ve been looking forward to seeing Israel (with friends who live there) with maybe a trip to the Czech Republic and Germany for more family research on the way home.

Selecting travel partners and planning is almost as much fun as going.

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Little things become exciting when the weather is like this.  Trouble is they aren’t things which would seem exciting to others so there isn’t much about which to write.

Found a recipe for peanut butter cup brownies.  I may give that a try in the next week.   And cinnamon muffins …

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To end this week, here’s a gift for all of us …   

Today, I will love and encourage myself. I will tell myself that what I’m doing is good enough, and I’ll let myself enjoy that feeling because I know the survivor gets to tell the story.

So … ‘til next week …

3 March …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Well, I once again have wheels.  Mark and I will be sharing the hybrid and there are logistics to be ironed out.  Paul would have to be out the door about 0545 on school days if he were to be riding the bus to school.  The bus leaves our stop at 0600 for the elementary school where classes begin at 0830, so someone will be taking him to school every morning.  He will join Kamille after school and come home with her.

Currently the plan for vehicle sharing is that I will have the car on mondays and fridays … mondays because of the library availability and fridays for shopping and visits with friends.

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Last thursday, friday, and saturday Family Search (the LDS genealogy site) and RootsTech (a branch of RootsMagic which is a maker of software for genealogy), who used to do yearly conferences, this year did an online conference.  Lots of interesting classes available free which will continue to be available for the entire coming year.  That gives me plenty of time to watch all I want, sometimes more than once.

So far I’ve done several classes and earmarked some of them for repeat attendance.  As a result, I have settled on my project for next year … I will concentrate on finding Cuthbert!  I am learning about research sites of which I had no clue.  Maybe one of them will be the key to unlocking this elusive ancestor.  One class that really caught my eye and ear was on using location centered search.  Maybe that will do it.  That will call for research in New Jersey, Pennsylvania, and Virginia … at least as starting points … and dates from 1750 to 1840.  It looks as if this will be a year-around (or maybe longer) project.  But just maybe I’ll find that Revolutionary War Patriot.

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Finally went to town.  Road had been acceptable for a couple of days, but I had been involved with the genealogy conference.  Paul and I went out for chicken sandwiches , fries, and lemonade at the local Burger King before we did some shopping.

Most people we met were masked and one store sent someone back out to mask.  But in one store, the clerk was upset about being masked and was outspoken about refusing the vaccine.  This pandemic has revealed some seemingly political opinions, in folks I’ve dealt with over the years, of which I had been unaware.  Interesting …

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Also on monday, I had an upsetting occurrence at the local Grocery Outlet.  It is owned and run by a man I’ve known since he was a boy at school with my sons and have always felt good with him, even to the point of (before COVID) hugs in the store.

But last monday about 1300, I encountered a young woman (whom I would not classify as a Lady), who was the cashier for the line in which I was waiting to check-out, and as a consequence I left the store feeling belittled and shamed.

I had a rather full cart and the man behind me had one item, so I made room on the conveyor belt and let him go in front of me as I started to unload my cart.  The cashier looked at us and pointedly reached to put one of those dividers in the open space between his one item and those I was unloading.  I subliminally shrugged and continued unloading.  Then, before she began ringing up my order, she began rearranging my items … grocery, cereal, produce, etc.  Another shrug.  Oh well … who knows what her day had been like.

Years ago, when the store first opened, George and I had been given an “Honorary Savings Card” as a result of his service in WW II.  It is worth three dollars off a $35 minimum purchase.  I always make sure my total is over $45 before I present the card to the cashier.  When I looked up at the register I saw it was over $50 and so placed the card in sight on that little desk beside the card reader.

The cashier instantly stopped what she had been doing, looked at me and the remaining items to be checked, pulled out the cooking wine and a gallon of milk, set them aside, and said in a clear voice something to the effect (I don’t recall exact words) that she can’t give a discount on wine or milk and that in any case I can’t use an EBT card for liquor.  An EBT card came with my MediCal registration and is good for $16 a month.  Her voice carried to the extent that others in line, and the cashier at the next checkout station, turned to look.

I was surprised and noted I had never had a problem with the savings card before at which she picked up the card, shoved it toward me pointing at it and informing me clearly that it says right on the card “Excludes liquor and dairy”.  I told her I wasn’t trying to argue or do something out of line, just noting the difference in experiences and that maybe the machines had been reprogrammed to no longer do that task automatically or maybe Rodney (the owner) possibly had new rules.

That wasn’t the end of our interaction, but I have no reason to delineate further.  

She continued with the checkout, ringing up the wine and milk separately so we went through the card routine twice.  And, as I was pushing my cart toward the door (my purchase totaled a bit over $100), she called after me in a voice which carried to all those in the checkout lines “Have a good day”.  She gave a short laugh, which was joined by the adjacent cashier, and followed that with “I hope you’re having a good afternoon.  My name is Jody”.

Here it is, two days later and I can still feel the discomfort.  I had never before had that kind of interaction with any store employee.   I can’t think of any reason she would single me out for that kind of treatment… because of the EBT card or possibly my white hair, since she intimated I didn’t understand liquor restrictions and couldn’t read the card? 

My first reaction was to call Rodney but decided not.  Now, two days later, I am considering writing to him.  If she felt free to treat me that way, would she hesitate to treat others the same? 

End of hurt-feelings-rant.

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Just finished a short delve into a book titled A Witch’s Brew which is an anthology of Gothic tales written by women including Christie, Shelly, Wolfe, Sartor, and many others.  There is one tale titled The Yellow Wallpaper which had been a favorite of George’s.  The one by Virginia Wolfe was especially chilling.

 Current read is the third in Dorothy Sayers’ series featuring Lord Peter Wimsey.  Jolly good fun.

And I finally watched the 7th season of Endeavour.  I wonder if anyone has searched for Colin Dexter, the author of the Morse novels, and made a list of appearances since he is said to be somewhere in every episode a la Hitchcock.  Maybe, after my relocation, I will rewatch Endeavour, Morse, and Lewis in order and knowing where to watch for Mr. Dexter would be entertaining.

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Weather has been off and on … but without snow.  Temperatures ranged from high 20s to high 40s with significant melt.  There are now more bare patches than icy snow spots.  Today is chilly but clear.  Spring approaches.

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Here’s today’s thought for all of us …

I resonate deeply with the truth I learned from Elie Wiesel: “Indifference is not neutral.  The opposite of love is not hate- it’s indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference.”

In fact indifference is the same as inaction.  

To do nothing is to do something.

So … ‘til next week … 

24 February …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Still cold, but not as cold as some places.  And intermittent snow.  In fact, last thursday Mark and the family went to Medford and Siskiyou Summit was socked in with fog and snow.  Trucks and cars were slipping and sliding and I-5 was closed on and off during the day due to traffic accidents.  But they stayed safe and arrived home little the worse for the adventure.

After the snow problem (?) last week, we have had nothing worse than wind and showers.  

This morning the sun is bright and I anticipate melting.

Paul and I are alone looking after each other.  Kamille and Mark were in Medford overnight.  They left early yesterday afternoon and will be home sometime this afternoon.  So last evening we watched a Winnie the Pooh movie about heffalumps after a dinner of Italian meatballs, rice pasta, corn, carrots, and green salad.  This morning was orange juice, oatmeal, peaches, milk, and tea.  This afternoon we make a trip to the library and eat out (probably Burger King).

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Next friday (the 26th) will be Paul’s last day of distance school.  It will seem strange doing without his activity around the house every day.  But he will be happy.  He needs more to do and interperson contact to stave off the boredom of looking at a Chromebook screen and playing with only his parents and the dog.  

It certainly will have an impact on the household routine.

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One day last week Mark emailed me a link to a YouTube site about the engineering of Beatles music for recordings.  Wow!  It seems it is possible to electronically move pitch all over the place … from what we all know (music in c, a, b, etc with sharps and flats) to things like “A half sharp major +43 cent” and
Bflat major -12) with something called Varispeed.  Want to know more? 

ttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgtzOafdoOQ&ab_channel=DavidBennettPiano

Be careful.  It might blow your mind … and then lead you on a chase of interesting sites all over YouTube.  I got lost for nearly two hours with Beatles stuff and who remembers what else and finally logged off from something about all the types of twins.  Don’t ask how I got there from being wowed by the fact that you can never hear Beatles music in concert which is the same as on a CD unless they lip sync it to the myriad types of twins that are possible.  Maybe try it yourself and see where you end up.

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Monday was a fix-it day.  The snow had melted enough that I will be able to drive out this afternoon.  Mark changed up the battery (it’s a hybrid) and moved it so I can access the driveway easily.  That’s how we will be going to the library and Burger King this afternoon.  I can’t remember exactly but it has been more than two weeks since I was last out to air the stink off, as Grandma Tyler would say.  I’m excited.  There are five books waiting for me at the library.  

I’m just finishing “Lammas Night” for the umteenth time after finding some new insights.   And there is scifi, mysteries, and “How to Raise an Elephant” waiting for me.  It’s going to be an exciting few reading days.

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I’ve already told you about yesterday, so here’s something to think about for now …  and give a try if you’re a poet and then … ’til next week …

17 February …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Last wednesday was a rough one for this household, as you are aware from last week’s blog.  

Mark had a sudden onset of edema, redness, and severe pain in his left knee tuesday evening.  His knees are compromised by years of policing so knee problems are chronic.  However, I don’t recall ever seeing him in such crippling pain.

He was directed to an urgent care clinic by his insurance company.  We don’t use the local emergency facilities any longer for anything pain related since their first reaction is to brand you a druggie as they did me when lower back pain had me nearly crawling to the toilet.

The diagnosis was probably gout but secondary diagnosis was septic arthritis which can be deadly.  He came home with an R for a heavy duty antibiotic and some pain control.  Tuesday night he had slept very little, but wednesday night he was able to get some rest so everyone slept better.

By thursday morning the fever was down, as was the edema, and the pain was greatly reduced.  So it wasn’t gout. 

It has been a stressful time for us all.  Things, while not back to normal, are very much improved.  He is now walking without a cane.  Thank you all for the support I felt.

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Also last week the south Pacific was rocking and rolling.  The final count was a slew of quakes between 6.0 and 7.2, most in the Loyalty Islands region east of northern Australia, but also a real shaker in Japan.  The Ring of Fire is on the move.

I do keep an eye on the Ring since we live just across a valley from a dormant volcano (Mt Shasta which has a fumarole, a boiling hot spring, on its western side) and just slightly southeast of an overdue plate subsidence zone (the Cascadia fault off the southern Oregon coast).

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 Another storm hit us thursday but lasted only one day … wind and rain.  It was back on sunday with wind from all directions.  The snowfall never got too heavy and there were periods of sun.  

Light overnight snow (less than an inch both sunday and monday mornings) accompanied by melting during the day.

Maybe the blizzard from a couple of weeks ago will be it for this winter.

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Last friday was the first day of Asian New Year, the Year of the Metal Ox.   New Moon was at noon.  However, the celebrations via the internet at the Joss House in Weaverville (a few miles west of Redding) began at 1100.  In the past, the Joss House had done Lunar New Year up well with firecrackers and lion dances and dim sum and dumplings and …

This year the California Parks Department (or Commission or whatever the State group is called) did it on Zoom.  Not the same, but better than nothing.

The man who is the talking head for the displays at the visitors’ center was on camera telling about customs and displays and demonstrating how to make a five pointed lantern.  There were videos with three women who teach Mandarin at local colleges talking about their childhood memories of  family holiday celebrations in China.  And, of course, a video of a Lion Dance from a past year.  It was fun … yellow and red and blue and green and white two person Lions who twitched their tails, jumped high, and ate goodies out of spectators’ hands.  All to the accompaniment of drumming and rattles and bells.  

I’ve been to the Joss House once in the past before the extensive refurbishment was done.  I would like to go again some time.

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Once a week, the family tries to have a “family movie night” which can be a challenge with three and a half generations and their varied movie preferences.  This week we watched The Tuskegee Airmen (available on the internet), based on the first African-American combat pilots in the United States Army Air Corps who fought in World War II.  I remember similar propaganda movies from the actual war years (30 Seconds Over Tokyo and 12 O’Clock High to name only a couple), but this is based on truth and is a good movie.  

The actual history of the pilots of the 332nd “heroes of the night” is impressive … more than 800+ medals and, as escort fighters for bomber runs over Europe, they never lost a bomber.

Impressive … and history worth knowing.

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 I was talking with a friend whom I haven’t been able to actually visit lately.  Sort of a virtual visit.  And she had an interesting observation.  She said that, due to COVID regulations and self-protection, it has been so long since she has been in an actual social situation that she’s not sure she remembers how to behave in one.

We know nothing will be the same once this is past, but I wonder just how much social encounters will have changed.  Elbow bumps rather than handshakes?  Avoidance of casual hugs?  Air kisses?

And those thoughts led to musings on the use of the word love.  It is used for so many things or relationships lately that I wonder if it has been diluted to the point of near meaninglessness (is that a word?).  People say they love colors, entertainers, sport stars, pictures, aromas, books, foods, views, ideas, etc., etc., etc. (you name it, someone loves it) to the point that when someone is told I love whatever or whomever, just exactly what is meant?  Is it real love or is it appreciation or acknowledgement or pleasure or understanding.  And even when used to indicate real emotional intent, does it mean having a crush on or being in love with or enjoying a sexual episode or being part of a long term, mutual relationship or ???

I find I use the word love sparingly and with specific intent just as I have many acquaintances but a limited number of real friends (some of whom I love).

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I recently joined an alumni group for my high school graduating class (class of ‘47).  We are dying off and I thought I’d see how many of us had found the same alumni site.

I was already in touch with two classmates and today heard from a third.  I know there was a fourth somewhere up north but have no contact information.  Maybe he’s gone too.  Seventy-seven of us graduated.  I hope there are more than four of us left.  We’re all in our 90s now (I was one of the two youngest in the class and Rose Lee is already gone).

However, the email from Ruth Ellen Duncan was a pleasure.  I correspond with Jim Anderson regularly and with Diane Lipking occasionally, so now there will be 3 of us in touch. 

Gifts come in unexpected packages.

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Fast Tuesday meant pancakes for supper with Noo Orlens jazz on the radio.  We then watched “The Princess and the Frog”.  I’d never seen it.  Fun, laughs, and good music (especially the alligator who plays trumpet).  Songs by Randy Newman (!) and Tiana voiced by a favorite actress of George’s and mine (Anika Noni Rose).  The animation is pleasing after so much pixel style, and I particularly liked the Shadow Man (Baron Samedi, Doctor Facilier), so suavely sinister.

It might turn into a tradition … George and I had some traditional movies.

Early May = Midway; July 4th = Gettysburg; December 7th = Tora Tora Tora; Christmas Eve = Tales of Hoffman from 1951 with Helpmann losing his footing and Massine losing his bow and Sherer’s disembodied leg still kicking and Tcherina coming down those stairs and Nicklaus and so much more; New Year’s Eve = Kiri Tekanawa and Hermann Prey’s Die Fledermaus from 1984; and New Year’s Day = the  Wiener Philharmoniker New Year’s Concert.  

That tradition sort of fell by the wayside following George’s death but I’m ready to revive it.  Fortunately, I have the DVDs.  Now I need to get a copy of Tiana’s movie.

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The family has already left to facilitate Ash Wednesday’s online sharing of the Ash Wednesday service at the church and here’s a thought for the morning … 

Strive to be first …

First to nod

First to smile

First to greet

First to share

First to help

First to compliment

So … ‘til next week … 

10 February …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

I’m late … and here’s why.

Last evening Mark, my son, began having pain in one of his knees.  That isn’t too unusual since he spent more than 20 years as a police officer doing street foot patrols and later car patrols and situations too often ended up with him running on cement.  Poor knees took a pounding.

But last night the pain increased with edema and inflammation.  He slept very little. 

This morning, as soon as possible, he contacted his primary caregiver by phone and was told his symptoms could possibly be sepsis and if not treated promptly could spread system wide.  So he and Kamille took off to see a specialist right away.  Paul and I have been waiting to hear what is happening, but so far (1255) no report.

Part of what follows was written yesterday afternoon/evening.

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As you may know, I keep a Grat Jar and every evening I put in a slip of paper noting something from the day which gave me pleasure.  Today (tuesday) it was seeing the morning sun on the snow.   The snow, particularly fresh snow, reflects the sun beams into rainbows … not just diamonds.  If you have never seen a field full of diamonds and rubies and emeralds and garnets and topaz and citrine and …  too bad.  It is a sight you would remember. 

And speaking of morning sun … this time of year, at this latitude, the sun movement at sunrise, south to north, appears to speed up.  From its rising place at Winter Solstice to now it has moved from just barely coming in my east window to being far north enough to catch the crystals hanging there and creating rainbows on the opposite wall in my bedroom. 

I need more crystals.

The other thing noticeable in the early morning is the sound of the trains as they pass just the other side of the ridge to the south of here.  Amtrak comes through about 0500 (give or take) going north followed soon by a freight going south.  The double track for passing is a bit to the north northeast.

This evening the Grat note said “snow jewels” and “train sounds”.

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Our mornings have been chilly (although not enough to match the -9°f my cousin in Chicago noted).  So chilly in fact that when I go out to let the hens out the chicken door is frozen shut.  Getting it open requires banging on it with a stick.  

Some mornings the hens rush to the door, take a look out, and turn around to stay inside.  However, for the last few days they have been coming out to forage the kitchen scraps.  That’s good since the leftover old salad greens Kamille brings home, from the preparation of take-home lunches the school is still providing for kids, seem to be favorites … particularly with Picasso.  Remember Picasso?  The hen with the mismatched beak?  She is very loquacious when there are greens to scatter.

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Last wednesday Mark went by the library while he was out and picked up the books I had on hold.  I now have enough books to last a week or two.  By then the snow will have melted enough for me to get out in the low-rider I drive.  Among my haul this time was another mystery set in early 20th century Manhattan (this time in Chinatown), the second Earthseed book by Octavia E. Butler, “the Archer” by Coel, and another Tudor era mystery.

The Butler book, classified as dystopian sci-fi, was written in the late 90s, and is eerily prophetic.  It is set between 2016 and the mid-2030s.  The US population has divided into three distinct  groups … the ruling zealots, the lowest of the low, and the majority in the middle who recognize the “dystopia” but just want to keep what they have and stay out of the crosshairs.  It is an interesting read if you don’t mind being made to think.

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Paul, like many children, has been missing the interaction with peers since the lockdown and snow have kept him housebound.  Last saturday he had a day out.  

There is a fairly new Community Center in Weed which has an indoor pool.  It isn’t anywhere near Olympic size, but it is a pool.  The local swim team, of which Paul has been a member for two summers, made an agreement with the Center to allow a training session.  The kids were sorted by age and experience and allowed into the water in controlled groups. 

He had a great time.  We’re hoping they will be able to do it on a regular basis.

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Paul had a birthday, his 9th, on the 29th.  He asked for pizza for dinner and a cheesecake for dessert.  Mark made the pizza (which was three kinds of meat and a lot of veggies).  Then last sunday, Tyler came out with a cheesecake to top all cheesecakes.  He said it was “New York” style and required 8 packs of cream cheese.  I believe it.  It was huge.  At least four inches high and delicious.  I sort of wish it had been my birthday.  I would have hoarded.  

Such simple gifts, but far superior to the common overspending in this society.

The drum set is in use, however reluctantly.  He practices using classes available on YouTube.  I will pass on George’s street sticks as soon as he reaches the age where he will “keep” them and not let them get lost or damaged.  George had burned his name and rank (Sgt in the high school ROTC) on them.

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Last monday I had a glorious surprise.  In a box of miscellany I has received (via a nephew) there was a deteriorating kit bag full of maps (both allied and German), a “diary”, and copies of military orders which dated to my father-in-law’s service with the Illinois 33rd, 129th Infantry during the final 100 day battle of World War I. 

Mark and I thought the National Archives was where they belonged, but when I approached the Archives the offer was “regrettably” declined.  The reason given was that they didn’t seem to be anything the Archives would find of interest.  

That was over a month ago.  That reasoning seemed strange, but why argue.  So I began looking for someplace to donate them where they would be preserved and available to historians.  

I tried the WWI Museum in Missouri and they wanted us to unfold them and take pictures.  That bothered me since they are so old and fragile.

Then I tried Fold3, a genealogical website,  and they too wanted a photo display.

I felt, and still feel, that opening them, unfolding them, and then refolding them was asking for trouble.  They are so old and fragile.  I decided to do nothing right away.  They need to be handled by folks who are trained in preservation.

Then last monday I opened my email to find a letter from a National Archive cartographer.  He apologized for the delay in responding to my offer and asked for background information.  Wow !!!

Who knows the level of the employee who responded to my offer originally, but the cartographers in College Park Maryland seemed to be interested.

I immediately sent genealogical information and Mark sent what he could remember seeing when he and I looked at a few of them before we decided we needed to leave further examination to experts.  His information included that they are “sourced from US Army, French Automobile Association, and the ‘Central Powers’ and detail the area around the battle lines formed in France and Belgium during the 100 Days Offensive, which ended WWI.   –   The Central Powers maps are marked in handwritten German and indicate such things as forward bases, trench lines, and artillery.   –   Included with the maps is a notebook, in which personal notes indicating training in basic intelligence are found, as well as demobilization orders.”

The response came tuesday evening.  Thanks but no thanks.  They didn’t think the maps etc. were acceptable … “Although your father-in-law’s artifacts are historically valuable, we do not believe them to be permanent federal records and as a result, we cannot presently accept them.

I still think the decision is ill advised, but will continue to look for a home for these documents.

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For a couple of weeks, the family had been watching the HULU series “the Hardy Boys” since we had been enjoying the original series during family read-aloud time.

The tv series is set in the 1980s and mixed up the original characters … Mrs. Hardy was dead; Aunt Gertrude was missing; Joe and Frank were aged differently (in the books they are close in age teenagers but in the tv series Joe is a precocious pre-teen and Frank is several years older); Callie was now Chet’s girlfriend instead of Frank’s; there was a new character Joe’s age who was a mix of the old Chet and ???; plus a new girl Joe’s age and her policewoman mother.

My recommendation?  If you enjoyed the books, don’t bother.

Current read-aloud is book three of the “Tripods” series by John Christopher.  Mark reads aloud and does character voices.

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It is now 1300 and I would guess that extensive tests etc. are being done.  Paul and I are doing well.  We make a good team.  I did breakfast and he did lunch.  

Update … 1345 … it is septic arthritis and they are on their way home.

And to end this blog …

“One of the most important steps you can take to help calm the storm is to not allow yourself to be taken in a flurry of overwrought emotion or despair – thereby accidentally contributing to the swale and the swirl.”    

— Clarissa Pinkola Estes

 So … ‘til next week …  

3 February …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

The last few days have been 5-minute days … don’t like the weather? Wait 5 minutes and it’ll change.  The mix has been fog, clouds, rain, wind, snow, sun, melt, etc. etc. etc.  You name it, we’ve had it, except for flooding.  Our house is on a rise at the foot of the meadow and runoff etc. goes around us.

I was up this morning a bit before 0300 for a trip to the loo (I find the term “bathroom” awkward ever since my request in a Cornish pub for directions to the bathroom resulted in this response from a barmaid … “Well luv, that depends on whether you’re a Brit who wants to take a bath or a Yank who wants to use the toilet.”).  

At 3 this morning the slanted north window was clear.  When I got up and went downstairs at 0615 there was about half an inch of snow on the ground covering some icy patches and it is still snowing lightly (at 0930).  We’re being told to expect 3 to 6 inches with this low pressure.  We’ll see.

A neighbor had cleared the upper drive so Kamille is getting out to go to work.  She is from the east coast, where 4 inches of snow is a bad storm, and was having cabin fever.  The car I drive won’t clear more than 2 inches and there is a 7 or 8 foot berm between it and the cleared drive.  However, I’m used to this.

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I was finally able to go out to care for the chickens.  The snow was still deep (between 2 and 3 feet after settling) and there was some ice and some collapsing, but I have grippers on my boots and a ski pole for stability and so I tried.  I needed some cardio exercise and was successful for 2 days.

This morning the report is ice with/under the snow so Mark did morning duty for me.  Maybe I’ll do the evening chore. 

Also doing some weight lifting as in bringing in firewood.

Ladies are still being a bit awkward.  The bring-in is only three or four eggs a day.  Oh well … warm will arrive soon.

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Last week I made a couple of batches of herbal salve … one to encourage sleep to be rubbed on the soles of your feet at bedtime (feedback has all been appreciative) and one for the healing of Boo-Boo type injuries.  That one I’ve been using on George and myself for a long time and always have at the ready for grandchildren or anyone else with scratches or scrapes or bruises or minor burns. 

My Israeli friend asked for some to take back with her when she and her husband return to Haifa this month (COVID permitting).  This time I am including the recipes.

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I haven’t been out, as you know, and so my to-be-read books are sitting at the library waiting to be picked up.  I’m finishing the prequel to “Practical Magic” and re-reading a couple of old timers.  But I hope to be able to arrange to get some new ones today.  Mark will be going to the church this afternoon so he may be able to pick them up for me … three mysteries, a fictional take on Tudor England, a philosophical treatise, and a fable by Octavia Butler. 

Those should keep me busy for a week or so.

I spent three days last week watching the new Mystery on PBS Masterpiece, “Miss Scarlet and the Duke”.  Not bad but not as good as some.  I guess it’s time for me to catch up on “Endeavour” and maybe follow-up with “Morse”.  I have a dream of someday wandering the streets and colleges of Oxford. 

Oh well …

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… and here’s a story to end this week …

I hired a plumber to help me restore an old farmhouse, and after he had just finished a rough first day on the job: a flat tire made him lose an hour of work, his electric drill quit and his ancient one ton truck refused to start.

While I drove him home, he sat in stony silence. On arriving, he invited me in to meet his family. As we walked toward the front door, he paused briefly at a small tree, touching the tips of the branches with both hands.

When opening the door he underwent an amazing transformation. His face was wreathed in smiles and he hugged his two small children and gave his wife a kiss.

Afterward he walked me to the car. We passed the tree and my curiosity got the better of me. I asked him about what I had seen him do earlier.

“Oh, that’s my trouble tree,” he replied “I know I can’t help having troubles on the job, but one thing’s for sure, those troubles don’t belong in the house with my wife and the children. So I just hang them up on the tree every night when I come home. Then in the morning I pick them up again.”

“’Funny thing is,” he smiled, “when I come out in the morning to pick ’em up, there aren’t nearly as many as I remember hanging up the night before.”

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance. We all need a Tree!

 So … ‘til next week … 

27 January …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

The snow this week awakened memories.  

Earlier in the week it was snowing lightly as I went out to close in the chickens one evening and I found myself just standing there watching the flakes drift down against the backdrop of evergreens.  I almost felt like crying, remembering all the times I’d walked this land during snow.

I remember the year our road closed the day after Christmas and didn’t open again until the second week in March (we were the only ones living this far out).  I remember the times the snow was so deep that you weren’t able to see out the windows on the north side of the house.  I remember the year friends came out on snowmobiles to get Mark and Michael to take them into town so they could go to school.  We didn’t see the boys for over two weeks.  I remember watching George on the big crawler tractor working to open the ten foot deep drift in the road just outside our driveway entrance.  I remember snowshoeing across Eddy Creek over to the neighbor’s place to check their water lines because they had forgotten to shut them off when they left for the winter.  I remember having to go looking for the milk cow because the snow buried the fence and she just wandered out.  I remember the glory of evergreen branches dressed in snow looking like Christmas cards.  I remember the stillness of falling snow.  I remember fields of diamonds when the sun came out on new snow.  I remember the taste of flakes on my tongue.  I remember another time neighbors from across Old Stage Road came out on snowmobiles to deliver religious pamphlets and to see if we needed anything.  I remember snow swirling outside the windows while we snugged next to the woodstove where a pot of soup was simmering.  I remember one time setting out with the boys (me leading followed by Mark with Michael in the rear) to see if the summer house down the road was okay and getting only about a hundred feet down the road before the snow was hip deep and I couldn’t push through any further so we managed to turn around and get back to the house.  We got the snowshoes soon after that.  I remember laughing while watching the boys and the dog(s) doing all the things boys and dogs do in snow.  I remember the year the top broke off the birch tree with a load of heavy, wet snow.  I remember the year a cousin came to visit, went cross country skiing without sunglasses, and wound up sun blind in the emergency department.  I remember George digging and packing steps up from the level of the front walk (after digging the three feet of snow off the walk) to the top of the snow so we could pound down a path to the barn and then doing the same thing out back in order to get out to the television dish to clear it of snow so we could watch PBS.  Those were the days of those really big tv dishes and he had to bend down to shovel the snow since his feet were on a level with the horn in the middle about six feet off the ground.  I remember snow sticking to the icicles on the north side of the house so they were fuzzy rather than crystal.  I remember …

That evening I caught only a couple of flakes on my tongue.  The snowfall was too light.  I thought they might well be the last flakes I ever catch what with climate change (it’s been years since we’ve had real snows) and with my pending new life now that I’m a widow.

Then saturday morning, in spite of the small amount of snow on the ground, my grandson was out with Siku.  I watched from my window as they romped, arms swinging and tail wagging.  Paul is growing so fast … and I am adding memories.

However, A blizzard hit mid-morning yesterday.  It is turning into the kind of snows we used to have.  By tuesday evening it was about a foot deep and the wind was fierce so drifts were forming.  Kamille made it all the way home until she encountered the drift that forms where our driveway meets the road.  Mark had to take the pick-up out to pull her free.  This morning both she and Paul are schooling from home … he with his regular routine, she doing her TA support for the autistic boy with whom she’s been working for two and a half years.

Hwy I-5 is closed from Redding north and parts in Oregon are closed as well.  This is a storm like we were used to having regularly back in the 70s, 80s, and 90s.  I still don’t seem to be able to post pictures here … yet … but I will post some on Facebook.  My account is “Wilma Dibelka”.

This morning it is still snowing, but the wind has died down.

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Along with who knows how many millions of others, I watched the swearing in ceremonies last week.  It was nice to see three of the 5 past presidents there paying honor to the position.  I can understand the reasons neither of the others were there … one too old to risk weather and the virus and the other one …

I had to leave right after the swearing in because wednesday is my day for chores.  But was able to catch up later.  Rather inspiring …

This wednesday I ain’t goin’ nowhere.

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As usual, my reading has been of mysteries, my form of comfort/easy reading.  The latest one was another Maisie Dobbs post-WWI with the usual engrossing descriptions of 1930s London and counties (shires) south and east.

It made me think of the pack of maps I have from when George’s Dad was in the last 100 days of that war.  I may have mentioned the maps before.  They are old (more than 100 years) and fragile.  I offered them to the World War I museum in Missouri, but they won’t take them without receiving pictures first.  And I’m leery of trying to spread them out to take pictures.  I’m not a restorer and don’t know how to handle them properly.

Mark and I had been able to look at one, but put it back right away (that was before I got the request for pictures).  Have I already told you this?  If so … sorry.   

The one we looked at was a map, in German, of the German armament placements during that final battle.

But the reason I’m writing about these WWI relics (again?) is the book I just finished reading.  It dealt with British cartographers during the war.  So I’m thinking of contacting the author and asking if she knows any place which might appreciate these maps and treat them well.  She does rather deep research and so might have a lead for me.

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Chicken hours are getting strange.  I let them out about 0800 when it gets a bit warmer and close them in after 1700 when it is dark enough for them to be back in their house. 

We are down to fourteen hens now.  The one who had been broody began acting ill … staying on the floor rather than on the roost or in a nest … all fluffed up, not eating and I assume not drinking.  Years ago I might have taken her into the house and tried to take care of her.  But this time I wished her well, set food and water where she could reach it “if”, and made her as comfortable as I could given I had no way to tell how she was feeling (she wasn’t talking at all).  She passed so I wished her well and took her out to the old garden area to return her to the ground.

I hadn’t gone out yesterday evening. I had made sure their feeder was full that morning so I wasn’t worried.  Mark went out this morning.  The snow is thigh deep for him.  I would have had a tough time.

Now, with COVID restrictions, there aren’t places to distribute eggs and even with a diminished flock we have more than enough eggs for the family … fourteen hens are plenty.

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Last monday I finally got to see the eye doctor for my “annual” check-up.  It had been two years.  

My eyes are still in excellent condition for someone my age.  Two years ago they were both 20/20.  Today the left is still 20/20 but the right is now 20/25.  I was told I am developing what is called a secondary cataract.  The doctor explained what is happening and told me to just keep close watch for any changes.  He also said this condition responds well to laser treatment.  Everything else (retina, macula, glaucoma, etc.) is great.  

Next appointment … January next year.

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Last thursday Mark and family did a BIG burn pile with household discards and the tree trimmings from the fire prevention clearing he has been doing.  He sited the pile over a stump, which he plans to remove, in order to get it burned down so it will be easier to pull.  That stump was still burning when the blizzard hit but was not a problem because it is in the center of the burned area.

I’d be willing to bet this snow has put it out since we haven’t seen a melt spot so far.

That made me think about how most people don’t understand that when a wildfire is 100% contained doesn’t mean the fire is out.  That is why the mop-up operations after a major fire always take several days, even weeks.

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I was recently rereading a book which had been a favorite of middle son Michael (Illusions by Richard Bach) and came across this …

Learning is finding out what you already know.  Doing is demonstrating that you know it.  Teaching is reminding others that they know just as well as you.

We are all learners, doers, and teachers.     –D. Shimoda

 So … ‘til next week …  

20 January …

More thoughts in the time of COVID-19 …

Inauguration Day … and most everyone is on edge.  

DC was occupied by security forces two days in advance due to threats.  There is even a suggestion of insider attacks.  

But a solemn occasion.  I was teary listening to the oaths taken and remembering the behavior of the last man to take that same oath.

The first of these ceremonies I remember, however vaguely, was when Truman was sworn in, without any pomp, when Roosevelt died.  Of course no internet etc. so we listened on the radio and waited for the movie newsreel.  And now another memory.

May we all be blessed.

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On March 20th of last year there were 60 US deaths from COVID.  Today the toll is over 4 hundred thousand.  Thirteen deaths in this very sparsely populated county.  More cows, chickens, hogs, deer, cougars, and who knows what else here than there are people.

Vaccines are being administered to healthcare personnel and those over 65 at a drive thru clinic at the fairgrounds in Yreka next saturday.

I don’t usually go to Yreka much and so I think I’ll wait until my local health clinic gets a supply.  I’m not away from home much so my danger of exposure is low.

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Last thursday was St. Hilary’s Day, in British tradition, the coldest day of the year.  Something to do with a heavy frost sometime in the 11th century although St Hilary was a French Bishop in the 4th or 5th century.

Here it started out at 34º.  The snow was all gone.  Only icy spots left where shade is day-long this time of year.

High for the day was at about 1400 … 56º.

So much for tradition.  But here the coldest month has usually been February.  We shall see.

This morning the low was 25º at 0600, but the sun is now shining.

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A week now since the attack on the Capitol.  Seeing the entire Capitol under lockdown … all roads closed to general traffic … razor wire topping tall fences everywhere … folding chairs set two by two six feet apart on the lawn facing the Capitol Building … Secret Service, National Guard, Military Police, and who knows who else everywhere the camera looked … three past Presidents in attendance … snow turning to sunshine … maybe the Nation will be ready to get back to the pomp and celebration of eight years ago by time for the next inauguration.

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Book report next week and more.  For now, stay safe … 

By ignoring, rationalizing, denying, and justifying our nasty motivations and unkind behavior, and that of others, we feel worse in the long run, not better. A tremendous sense of relief comes when we can be honest.

 So … ‘til next week …